Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis, as defined by Merriam Webster means to "a striking alteration in appearance, character, or circumstances." This blog is entitled Metamorphosis and even the url is a-black-butterfly because I am entitled to change. Change is the only thing constant. Well, I feel like I'm stuck in the battle of weight loss. Now to be honest I have 2 blogs, this one here and one I maintain on wordpress.com. The wordpress.com one is about my social occurences and daily encounters. Yet, this blog is much more personal, it's hitting at the core, which bothers me every day, every day I look in the mirror for 14 years of my life. My weight! I stepped on the scale the other day and I weigh 255lbs. ?! Now I tried weight watchers but wasn't dedicated I lost 13lbs and started at 255 now I'm back 3 months later. RATZ I absolutely hate it. It's start to disgust me. I need to change my ways...I'm tired of being the "big" girl...the "fat" friend.
It's depressing me and affecting me socially..no one sees it but me.
Tomorrow, July 7, 2008 starts a change, a metamorphosis.